Like Kros said, infatuation and love are two different things. But if you find a girl beautiful through your feelings and objectively, even if others may not and it doesn't matter to you, i'd say you're on the right path. Why are you scared? Other then the obvious fact that you're in a different country with a foreign girl who's future with together seems all but certain lol. I don't know how you envision where it's going with her, to a fork in the road or a linear path but either way, it doesn't mean whatever does happen there can't be a meaningful experience. Personally, I know I love my gf because despite the hardship i'll face with my own family dating a girl outside of the race, it doesn't matter to me and losing her outweighs the hardship. And I need that to love someone, a girl who makes me feel like the rest doesn't matter, I won't give her up. It's like an important choice you have to make for yourself that defines who you are. Maybe in this case its the fact that your "life" is thousands of miles away and there's this girl who might compel you take a road you've never considered. I dunno, but you get what I mean. It might be too soon to go there but something to think about. Meanwhile, yes, try to enjoy your time with her, however long that may be. Don't use sex to define your relationship. I'm assuming you already slept with her right? Define it with who you really are, don't be impersonal, showing that side of you who can sleep with a broad, be totally empty or apathetic and smile. Be vulnerable, be happy, be pure. Don't lie to yourself or her. K that's all I got.