Yesterday the girl I cheated with called me (we have not talked for about two weeks) she said she needed someone to talk to and she did not know who to turn to. She said she knows I don't respect her and I am nothing in her heart. She told me she is not happy with her bf and does not know what to do, she's over-worked, exhausted, and misses me like crazy. She is surprised I listened to her and helped her get through this situation considering I just lost my gf and have my own struggles. She was also surprised I was being so sympathetic and kind considering we risked my job together and she also brought drama into my life by talking about me to my other boss. She also said that it was some big brave "show off" saving that kid at the bar the other night. She said a few other things about me and my character. I told her to she can say or look at me anyway she wants, she's going to anyhow. I told her people tend to try to simplify and categorize me, I guess it makes me easier to deal with. I also went on to say that the real reason I answered her call and step in to save that kid is because they're human-beings... and her being one I deep down became fond of and even special to me in a way. The world seemed to be getting dimmer at the thought of me never seeing my ex again, not helping those in need. It's as if all these things did not just shut the lights out from all of those around me, but also in my mind...