If you know the moves, anything can be a weapon. I know the moves but whenever I think about the encounter i get a lil......crazy. Like I see my self beating him with my stick(practices kenpo) and laughing while doing it. I dislike that feeling, musta been something created in me when i used to get bullied in elementry. However, bloodlust doesnt match my sexy nature and thus it disgusts me. If I could describe how it feels i could say it feel like im Kenpachi(bleach ref), that the closest thing i've seen to match how i felt. .....Am I crazy?! Nah..you're not crazy. In fact, when I start visualizing what I would do in a situation, I tend to relish it a bit. I have no sexy nature so bloodlust suits me quite nicely Truthfully, I don't really feel ashamed because I know in reality I would probably handle it much differently.