Lucandrake

It's 3 A.M. I'm in my room yet again, staring at the monitor dreaming of how my life "should" be. I can't get a grip of myself, I'm noticing the paleness of my skin (for the sunlight has only been seen twice this entire week). I feel like I'm loosing myself again, in my own world where all I do everyday is grind in the imaginary, hope in the dreamworld, and accomplish nothing while gaining the self-portrait of superiority. I'm still a child, I have 2 months left to grow up. But I've been down this road again, bathed in it, lived in it. Writing about it only gives my fear strength, but if writing can bring me ANY emotion, then it means I can pull out courage as well. I've been looking for a key to do that, I've been looking for a key to open my box, and I've been looking for the key with all the answers to life. I'm tired of looking, I'm tired of searching, if I'm left alone to drift in the desert plains of no where, without food or water the only option left to do would be to create survival! Stop searching for yourself, stop trying to find out who you "should" become. Become something you want to become, and create yourself from the ground up, for if you didn't loose yourself in the first place... What if I really didn't loose myself in the first place? Then that means you're searching for something that can not be found, if you desire gold from the person in front of you, and wish to remain a true man, a true pro, then you are to either create or find your own gold. Now that you have searched beyond the caves of infinity, your only option left is to create it. Start smelting, for your personality isn't an illusion you can't grasp, but a creation you're too afraid to trust.

There's a fourth coming out in 2010 so it's not a trilogy .

At Worlds End (Pirates). I'm so glad I didn't pay money to see this film, it just... It felt like they did a bunch of things wrong >.>, the transitions forced, and the movie just didn't feel at all as good as the first or the second.

Your key? You just sign up and that's it. It came OUT of beta .

Whats are your highest scores dudes!? I have 1,066,331 .

I requested membership. Come on dudes . Let's all play some BF HEROS ! It's mad fun!

Not yet, usually takes a week or two after release for achievements lol .

Just wanted to post this because I personally am a big fan of Geo Wars. Saw the flash version and I digged it tremendously! http://www.kongregate.com/games/JuiceTin/vector-effect Try it out .

Congrats , keep pushing! Your dreams are in your hands ^.^.

Msg me, same name as the forum (AkihiroZi). I'm d/l the client right now!

Dude when I heard the news I was like "lol stop lieing" now I'm all like "Shit sucks"!

John Freeman you got here slow!

Dude, that movie looks hilarious! Just saw the first season, it's cool. It has a bunch of "Filler" episodes though... Main reason I dislike western cartoons is because episodes don't always follow "a" plot or advance "the" plot to begin with. O well, wonder how the movie adaptation will turn out. Gotta say though, Aang pulls of a Naruto more then Naruto does lol.

Saw this over at the Atlus forums, it was hilarious! The remote thing makes it super funny .

You're kidding me? It's still going to be made?

I would prefer an option over the two . But if you had to pick, light skins are harder on the eyes but visually appealing. Dark skins are easy on the eyes but look.... Anyways, I voted light.

Here's the trailer! http://www.gametrailers.com/video/exclusiv...-the-last/51238 What do you guys think?

Ok, I had to double post. First, I know this is old, but... http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0938283/ M.Night is directing it, so I have mixed feelings. Second I'm now "buying" all the episodes, when they arrive I will post up my impression of the entire show (although I expect it to not disappoint). Laters

Best of luck (and wishes) to you my Cindr, may you have enough energy to go through everything now and come out stronger then before . Shit sucks...

You're more fit then I am, be happy about that . I wonder if I should join the trend . Or keep it in my blog? Decisions....

It's been over a month since the website went down due to some lame script kiddies. O well, not much happened except the idea of me controlling my emotions :/. It sounds weird, but I'm depressed as fuck, and I'm not letting it get to me. I can come up with at least 5 different situations in the past month that I just wanted to brake down and cry (my ass off, rivers of tears pouring down my cheeks and disabling human contact for a while), but I never did. It's like all I have to do now is smile and boom, no matter how hard my heart gets, or how hurtful it becomes, I manage to keep the fear at bay. Which is a good thing, I don't want to seem sad or appear useless anymore, hell I have two months of no school but I don't plan on wasting it! I want to learn something before I progress into my learning environment. Also, I'm very much considering walking down a path of a certain impossible career that not many venture into. I have dreams of being a Physician and helping sick dudes out, I'm going to test myself out next semester and see if I can pull off a massive amount of studying without braking down. For now though, I wish to rest, and rebuild myself mentally with my acquired new skill. See if I can do something else (for entertainment, maybe learn how to play the Guitar or complete my vocal training), so that I may further be stress free in the environments I wish to one day throw myself into. Well, I have much more that I can fill up in this entry, I've stated it before, my writing can become an infinite story written to explore the true emotions of my heart. I only hope that when people read my piles of verbal influence, they feel the same way.

Those are curse words? Lol I always used them to mock curse words :/.

Geo Wars 2 rocks! You can have it and play it for 10 minutes a day for a month and still get more then your moneys worth. Bionic Rearmed though is a tough one, me and my friend played it to death and now it's beyond boring . Edit: Hey William, just thought I'd let you know that GameStop is currently selling Gold Memberships(year cards) for $39.99 (the original price is $49.99). If you wanna save $10, there you go

You just replied to a month old thread. Fail (lol)

No, don't state non-sense! O hey, I just realized we can add attachments to our posts! Sadly, only 300k worth of information ....