What's up guys - my son is resting in peace.

[emsley]

Hey.

 

July 28th My son became ill with flu/cold symptons.

I'd just got finished in court for my "access" to my kid when my old man showed up at the door and told me he was in the hospital and had been diagnosed with meningitis. Two hours later he died, doctors put him into a sleep so he could fight it but it wasn't to be. He caught the worst of the worst kinds of this illness.

 

It's took me a while to post about this as many of you are my faceywacey book friends and already know, but tonight I just thought I would let some of you know about this. People often say "i dont know what you're going through" for the most part you just go in to a zombie like state, then when the haze of shock wares off you start to enter a living hell.

 

My faith in Jesus Christ and experiences with the holy spirit have stopped me going over the edge or doing anything that turns the lights out.

The strangest thing happens, I can think about my son Dylan and be sad, but if I think of Jesus and my son then I can break down in tears, or feel comforted.

 

Dylan was my only son/child he lived to the age of 3 years and eleven months.

It was the greatest privilege of my life to know what we are and can be, and to feel the love for your child is an amazing experience that changes you forever. It is a gift from the Lord, I only wish Christ would not of harvested him so early.

 

A truly Cruel act of nature as dylan was a strong healthy boy, I didnt get to spend as much time as I would of liked with him but GOD I TRIED, the mother was too young, too short sighted to see the bigger picture with a court system wired up to backflip in to hot coals at the mothers request. I was treated like a heroine addict with numerous rape charges in court.

 

I havn't got much else to say other than if you have kids, if you have loved ones embrace every second of every fucking day.

 

This is a deal I never thought I would get in life.

 

 

 

[Robert]

That's very sad.

 

Hope things turn better for you.

[Bambi]

I knew about this happening but I never said anything after emsley told me off on facebook. We may not get along but this is still the worst thing to happen to a child.

 

Im sorry we dont get along emsley but I would never wish this upon you and im truly sorry you are dealing with this.

 

All my love

[Hard Core Rikki]

You got my deepest sympathy. I can imagine how hard it is to lost a kid this young so suddenly.

[emsley]

I did get on with you Bambi, we just crossed wires is all and I drank a bit. lol

 

I've been talking to Will and he has been pretty good with me, others like Jitaway have lost a kid too so the empathy is there.

A good day for me is getting out of the house, and not having anxiety attacks and my stomach/guts going to whack with panic.

Its a cruel f***ing world man.

[ken_cinder]

Sorry for your loss, my little sister died of it when she was 2(I was 3)...I still have memories of it(the police, EMS etc), which really sucks because I don't remember ANYTHING else at that age.

 

Was he not vaccinated for it? They have vaccines here now, and all my kids are.

[emsley]

Sorry for your loss, my little sister died of it when she was 2(I was 3)...I still have memories of it(the police, EMS etc), which really sucks because I don't remember ANYTHING else at that age.

 

Was he not vaccinated for it? They have vaccines here now, and all my kids are.

 

All i know is that he had all his jabs.

I just live day to day with a part of me missing.

 

My memeory as a kid is weak, I remember very little things from ages of 3, remember more stuff aged 4. Then by 5 i remember everything

[Agozer]

Parents should never outlive their children. You have my sympathies.

[gamez fan]

Sorry to hear of your sad loss my deepest sympathys to you and your family.

[veristic]

... my condolences to you and your family, and your boy's family.

 

I recently survived a highway car accident on the 6th, being sandwiched between a tow-truck that rear-ended the car I was in as passenger in to a pickup truck in front, along with a 4th vehicle (I have photographs but my lawyer doesn't want me talking or sharing details about the incident). I was asleep when it happened and knocked unconscious for a good 6 hours where I woke up in the trauma ER with a concussion and brain hemorrhage, some internal and external damage, then my family found me. I had no clue about any of it happening or the experience of it and being here, now, hearing about your son and thinking on my circumstances, it just makes you wonder ... why am I here and he isn't?

 

Why ... ?

 

I wish your son was as lucky as I was. I am sorry for your loss, ems.

[emsley]

... my condolences to you and your family, and your boy's family.

 

I recently survived a highway car accident on the 6th, being sandwiched between a tow-truck that rear-ended the car I was in as passenger in to a pickup truck in front, along with a 4th vehicle (I have photographs but my lawyer doesn't want me talking or sharing details about the incident). I was asleep when it happened and knocked unconscious for a good 6 hours where I woke up in the trauma ER with a concussion and brain hemorrhage, some internal and external damage, then my family found me. I had no clue about any of it happening or the experience of it and being here, now, hearing about your son and thinking on my circumstances, it just makes you wonder ... why am I here and he isn't?

 

Why ... ?

 

I wish your son was as lucky as I was. I am sorry for your loss, ems.

Thanks mate.

You had a near miss, you must be here to do something. .